Well, I've done it. I've been a part of the blogging world for over a year now, although I haven't written as much as I'd like to. When I look back at my most recent posts, they are depressing and it's a wonder anyone wants to read them. Sorry. So, thanks to those that have stuck by me or joined me on my not so joyous journey of late. I've felt I don't have much to say other then depressing things and besides that, my job is my life right now, and due to confidentiality, I can't talk about that either.
To add to that, I have a confession to make, I'm no longer 30 and Patiently Waiting. Sadly, I'm 31 and Impatiently STILL Waiting (and Feeling Hopeless).
I've hit a low time in my life again. I seem to get down in the winter months. When I feel depressed, I feel it stems back to my infertility and desperate desire to have children to call our own. We are considering starting fertility treatments up again as it's been about a year since we did our last IUI. However, I'm afraid I won't cope well with my stressful 3 weeks of the month live-in job plus the injectable hormones. I just really want to be trying again. We are going to make a few changes some within our job and I hope these will help me cope better with daily life and allow me to start fertility treatments again.
Thanks again to those who have stuck by me and commented on my posts. The changes that have occurred in our lives over these last 6 months have left me feeling more alone and more separated from friends and with feeling depressed, I'm not in the mood to reach out.
I'm so sorry that things are hard right now. The winter months are always very hard for me as well. The lack of sunlight really plays a role. I also just think of it as a depressing time. Add into that the infertility and your job situation, and it is understandable that you feel so low. I hope that you will feel okay with your treatments, and that you will have the confidence to pursue them. You can do it.
ReplyDeleteYou have been a real trooper over the last year or two or three. I'm so proud of how well you have stuck with all the difficult changes you have gone through. I'm so glad I have you to wait with me and share all these difficult moments with. I know it is difficult for you to hope during these times, but we must never give hope. If we lose hope we have lost everything. My prayer for you is that wonderful passage in Romans 15:13.
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